some things that are a big deal and some things that aren't important at all. thinking out loud...
food. i know i feel better without gluten in my diet. but, my stomach has to be able to feel better than this. is it time to cut out dairy? i don't think that taking hyoscyamine as often as i need to is a good thing, but it tends to be very helpful to my level of comfort. especially if i am running a long distance. how else can i change my diet to get this belly of mine the happiest it can be?
learning something new. like becoming a wilderness first responder. and also, i have been thinking a lot about what it would involve to become a wildness emt. it is definitely something i am interested in. would it be useful? worth my time, money and commitment? would i like it?
rock climbing. i really want to do a lot of it at the gym this winter to get my skill and strength up so that when the warm months come again i can have me some fun times climbing again.
religion. organized religion. spirituality. what do i really believe? there are some really specific things that i feel i know/believe and there are some things i am not sure about and there are some things i definitely don't believe. i consider myself a spiritual person. i talk to god every single day. more than once. i would be lost without that relationship with my heavenly father. i would be lost without my belief that jesus christ died for me. those things are a huge part of who i am and the decisions that i make in my life. does one need to be a member of an organized church to know that god lives? no. does one need to be a member of an organized religion to feed spirituality or keep their faith alive? maybe. if one is a member a specific church, do they have to agree with every aspect of it to be a "faithful" member? no. do i think there is truth and goodness in many different religions both christian and non christian. yes. so where do i fit in? does it even matter?
my siblings. they are very cool and talented people. and i wish i could be more like each one of them. i think about them and wonder what they are up to all the time. i miss them and wish i could see them more often.
living in the now. i hate it when i am wishing for things. it makes me feel ungrateful. which i am most certainly not. this is just a hard one.
people. specifically friends. does it seem that certain people enter your life at certain times for sometimes very specific reasons? or sometimes for reasons that you don't understand, but hope to some day? i am constantly amazed by the people in my life that i have the opportunity to know.
that's a lot of stuff rumbling around up there in my brain. makes me self conscious to share it with you, but there you go.
hope your tuesday is fantastic. xo lovers,