i feel like poo the last couple of days. a couple of times a month my muscles and joints hurt so bad that i feel nauseated. it hurts to be touched. I just can't quite figure out what flares me up? i feel a little better today than yesterday, so that is a plus. but, there is something else that is bothering me. I wish I had better self esteem or whatever you want to call it. I am constantly getting down on myself for just about everything. Especially my outer appearance, which is ridiculous. I know. I get self conscious when people look at me. I just wish that when I looked in the mirror I could think just once that I was pretty, but I don't. All I see are all the things I hate about myself. I am trying to get over it. I am. I will. I didn't used to be like this I don't think. Anyway... I was soaking my aching body in a hot, steamy bath last night and reading my book. I came across this passage, "Beautiful is the soul that looks out from my eyes." And that is what really matters. OK, I am off to try and change my attitude and take some serious ibuprofen!