Tuesday, April 26, 2016

ojo caliente + wild rivers = sisters weekend

post soak hair do's. i'm the smart one that put a hat on;)

jules came in to taos on friday afternoon and we started a serious sister weekend! we had new mexican food at the kyote club and went and saw the huntsman. saturday we went to the boys pine wood dirby so they could race their cars. after that, we took them to the taos invent event! angie's friend, nina, is the public programs manager at twirl. she is so much fun and so talented and creative!

after we dropped the boys off at home, the three of us headed to ojo caliente to spend the afternoon and evening hiking and soaking in the springs! there are so many pottery and arrowhead remnants there. so beautiful to see. after we hiked, we put our swim suits on and moved from pool to pool. the different pools contain different minerals and are all different temperatures. we soaked for hours and never stopped talking or laughing for a second. it was hard to contain our laughter and keep it to a whisper so they wouldn't have to break out the "sshhhh" signs! it was amazing. i absolutely hate that we don't live close to each other. we stayed until they closed and drove home and stayed up even later and had tea and watched a movie.

sunday afternoon we headed with brad and the boys to wild rivers at the rio grande del norte national monument for a little trail time. brad trail ran up top while the boys road mountain bikes. us gals ran down into the canyon to where the red river and the rio grande river converge. we sat on some volcanic rock right in between the two and put our feet in. we got a couple pictures with the self timer:) then we ran on the trail up the rio grande river until i saw the most perfect spot and it was begging to be skinny dipped in! so, dip the skinny we did! we got naked and jumped in. it was bloody cold and we screamed the whole time! it was invigorating and hilarious. we got dressed and hiked our butts back up out of the canyon. so. much. fun.  the end.

toodles for now lovers.



shooting the moon )

angie and i set up and shot the full moon last week. we had such a fun time. we are planning to edit our images tonight and hopefully get some printed. if either of us got an image that is worthy, we might stretch it onto a canvas. i think i mentioned in a previous post that my sister works at a fine arts print shop with owner, gak stonn, on the plaza here in taos. anyway, neither of us had ever photographed the moon before, but it was on my list of things to do while in new mexico! the sky is endless here.

full moon i swoon!



ps i have seen a coyote, fox, herds of big horn sheep, red tail hawk...on my trail runs. fantastic:)

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

t e n t r o c k s | national monument + santa fe

angie and i took off sunday at noon and headed to santa fe for an overnight trip. santa fe is about an hour south of taos, so its super close. we stayed at the hotel chimayo on the plaza. we had a wood burning fire place in our room. and believe me, we burned every piece of wood because it was chilly! on the way down to santa fe, we stopped and had a late lunch at gabriel's. it was fantastic! we had the conchinta pibil and the carne adovada along with table side made guacamole. yes to all of it! we made another stop along the way which will be a whole other post:)

monday morning we slept in a little, worked out, got dressed and walked over to cafe pasqual's, where we had one of the best breakfasts i have ever tasted, along with some mexican hot chocolate made with almond milk. then we spent the rest of the morning wondering the plaza and finding treasures.

next we headed to tent rocks national monument where we hike through the canyon up to the top. it is such a cool and beautiful place. i was surprised by how narrow it got. the rock formations are amazing. and what a view from the top! it started pouring on us and we ran all the way down. it was so much fun.

we headed back into santa fe because we planned to eat indian food at raaga's. and again, we were not disappointed. it was really really delicious. the atmosphere was warm and charming and the service stellar. paddy rawal greeted us as soon as we walked in and he came to our table while we were eating to make sure we were happy:) it was the perfect way to end our trip... northern new mexico is not lacking in beautiful scenery or good food, that's for sure.

girl time is a must in this life. especially when it is with a sister. we missed you jules! we were wishing you were with us the whole time;( we love you!!!

i was very teary during my trail run this morning. i stood on the cliff next to the gorge and cried my eyes out for o for a long time.

hope your week is going smooth lovers. toodles for now...



Wednesday, April 13, 2016

h e l l o from new mexico!

sorry to leave you all hanging for so long. everything happened so quickly and i have been really trying to be present and stay focused.

i am on a one month leave of absence from work for the month of april. my brother, cory, and his family came and stayed with me the first weekend in april and we went to support my nephew dylan at his motorcycle race out in the west desert. i am so glad i got to spend some time with them. as soon as they left, i packed up my mountain bike and few essentials and hit the road.

trevor made me run up and down a big hill with him

pit stop for dylan

i am staying with my sister, angie, and her family in taos, nm. i needed some separation from my home, the exhausting emotions, trauma and everyday reality to be able to find some clarity and work on some decisions i need to make. mostly, to do some healing.

it has been really great so far. i miss owen. a lot. it feels so good having family buzzing around me. to wake up to the sound of brad building a fire and then the boys getting ready for school and angie trying to get ready for work while wrangling everyone. i am basically just inserting myself into their lives and hoping they don't hate it!
i have been sleeping better. i am trail running. i use that time to focus my mind and sort through my desires, worries, hopes, dreams, possibilities...i talk to o. i talk to god. i cry. i smile. i feel grateful. i feel destroyed.

happy birthday number 8 ro man

angie and i have had some fun mountain biking on her day off. we heard some awesome live music at the taos mesa brewery last week. the band is called skydyed and it was their first performance on their first ever tour. i just happened to read about them in the paper that morning and knew i would dig the music from the description. i did dig it. electronic rock. we danced and were relentlessly picked up on. quite amusing;) rowan was baptized over the weekend so i got to see my other sister, jules, and her family as they came up for the occasion. us three gals got away for some girl time saturday night. we went to a flick and out for a late dinner and then for a midnight hike that was pretty hilarious! too bad angie and i woke up the next day barfing;( boo. why does this always happened to us?! we were down and out for 2 days. gag.

sometimes i pick the boys up after school, which is up near taos ski valley. one day i surprised them by heading to the taos cow for ice cream before heading home and riding bikes!

yesterday as i was driving home from my trail run, i got a phone call from my friend, happy. she saw me driving by and wanted to get together. so we parked downtown and she took me to lunch at lambert's. we had a really good talk. really good. she is going to take me on a new trail tomorrow morning. i met her and her husband tze and their kids, grace and matteo, through angie and brad. we have had some fun adventures together. it is no coincidence that i met them. after owen died, they sent me one of the most thoughtful care packages i have ever received. blessed.

i have been coming in to angie's work with her some days. it is such a cool space and i am writing from there right now. angie is getting ready to display her own work in the gallery soon. she busy printing right now. i am hoping to go to a ranch to shoot some buffalo with angie's camera while i am here so i can't make a huge print in the studio to hang at home.

anyway...the weather is way too nice today to be inside. we are a little more caught up now. follow me on instagram. i post regularly if you want to follow my adventures there! i will post here again.

toodles for now lovers.



ps sorry the photos are a random mess. i am building this post on my sisters mac and ugh!

Friday, March 25, 2016

sister visit | installment III - antelope island + heavier things

loaded up in aunt cyries car to head out for some adventure!

i love antelope island. i love running on the trails out there. it is such an unusual place. so when the boys said they wanted to see the great salt lake, i was excited to take them out for some hiking on frary peak and to see those big ole bison. we had a fun time!

we met up with one of my favorite humans, julie, and her cute kiddos one morning at liberty park. julie and i got a good run in with the girls in the stroller while angie and the boys rode bikes. it was pretty chilly that morning and we were all a bit frozen after the kids played on the playground for a while. so, we headed to city cakes again for warm drinks and treats! look how freaking cute these little people are;) 

i had angie help me with a couple of projects while she was here. things i wanted to address, but not alone. we cleaned out o's closet. that was hard. she helped me clean out my storage room downstairs during which i found the case to the gun and the bullets. to say that was traumatizing would be an understatement. every time something like that happens, i feel like i take a thousand steps backwards. which is why i need to step away from everything for a while and do some healing. i just really cannot explain to you in words. the feelings, the images, thoughts and desires that go through me all day every day. it is so complicated and terrible and overwhelming. my muscles hurt and burn, i can't sleep, i have bad dreams, i'm lonely, i feel like a burden on my friends, neighbors, family, co-workers...it doesn't feel good. no one can understand. 

this what i sleep with every night.

angie, harper and rowan left early sunday morning and it has been a pretty emotional week for me. i am meeting with a grief therapist regularly and we had a pretty emotional session yesterday and i made a big decision that i will share with you once it is official. i asked lehua to come over last night to help me think through some things. i just need other brains to help mine right now. i took kimberly to dinner last night to let her know my plans and to catch up.

one of my lymphoma lesions that was previously treated with the chemo med is coming back. pile on.

anyway...chin up and keep on keepin on lovers. i have some ducks to get in a row. i have some fun things planned for the weekend and i will definitely get some trail time in. have a happy easter! if there is one thing i believe, it is that christ lives.



ps life is good and people are good and i am thankful every day...